So maybe I’m not marketable. 

I’ve been feeling a bit low as a writer/person in the world lately, which is weird because the thing I’ve been feeling low about is the fact that I’m not angry all the time.

I am a feminist. There’s no denying it and I’m happy to say so. And I am angry about a lot of things. I just refuse to let those things make me angry all of the time. I refuse to believe that there are more bad people than there are good, and I refuse to believe that the world we live in right now is the reality we have to accept. If we start simply accepting that things are terrible, then we let the terrible things win.

It’s not that I’m ignoring the terrible things. I just don’t want to validate them. My goal is to give you just a small break and to remind you that there is still good out there.

I choose to believe in and acknowledge love.

But I’m not just a feminist, I’m also a writer. And while I love this blog, I’m also trying to “make it” as a writer and I’d like to be published on other websites as well. …except that most of the websites I find that I think might be a good fit for my style are, well, only publishing angry-feminist stuff right now.

So there’s a strange sense of loneliness creeping in… all because I’m refusing to be unhappy.

I turned to Bestbian today, who always knows what to say in these situations, and… well, she didn’t disappoint:

I’ve seen a few of my writer friends falling down this rabbit hole lately. “What do the readers/publishers/editors want to see?”

But I think we all need to remember that that’s not the question we need to be asking. The question we need to be asking is “What do I have to say?”

I have stories of my foolishness, my uterus, and love.

Maybe that’s not marketable.

And maybe that’s okay.

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6 Responses to So maybe I’m not marketable. 

  1. Sally Allen says:

    Please don’t lower your standards or change what you’re doing. The world needs this, even if it doesn’t know it needs it. ❤️

  2. Julie says:

    I want to be honest with you…when you don’t see what you want to do being done by others, I think you can be “on to something.”

    Great people and ideas often don’t “fit”…and replication is easy. It is an easy strategy that gains followers and often makes money – like a Subway franchise. Those things make a fortune. They aren’t making a great sandwich, but people know what to expect so they go there and get a sandwich.

    Don’t turn into Subway. Be the gourmet sandwich everyone doesn’t “get” yet, and aren’t sure whether to try. Of the people who try, some won’t like it and will go back to Subway. Some people will wonder where you’ve been all along – WHY HASN’T ANYONE DONE THIS?! They will crave you and become your greatest fan. You will give them something they’ve wanted all along.

    Like Tanks Good News is taking hold…not everyone is angry (gosh, it’s unbearable), and many people love good stuff. It’s just not always easy to find that perfect fit – heck, I waited until my 30s until I got married..but man, I’m glad I never settled.

    People need to find their audience, and their audience needs to find them.

    Finding that perfect fit on both sides might just take some time, connections, and luck…but it can happen. I hope you never “settle” and certainly never change who you are – the world would be missing out.

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